As a human I don’t understand what life is. I just don’t understand how our world is corrupting in front of our eyes. I feel scared not knowing what’s coming in my way later on in life. Some of us are cowards but I feel still proud to be living because why would I want to cut out now. it would be like all the suffering, the pain, the struggle was all for nothing. But then again life is all about going to the unknown and maybe that’s terrifying but I’m willing as a human to discover the known. I owe to myself to know what I stand for. I can’t even imagine not knowing. Fck I’m high.
Today I saw someone who reminded me of how much of mess my life is. Not because it’s their fault but because they remind me of how great my life could of been with them being at my side. They didn’t let me go I pushed them away. The sad part is that I knew I was pushing them away but I’m so drowned in my own pain that I didn’t stop it & it sucks because I can’t go back and in the end it you realize how fucked up you’re to let some pain get in between someone you truly care for.